It’s taken quite some time for me to write this. There have been many obstacles to my writing: an egregious scheduling conflict that forced me to choose between going to the Cave Canem Poetry Retreat and the Allied Media Conference. Then, after the decision was made, contending with it, asking myself why I had chosen not to stay in Detroit despite the fact I have wanted to attend the AMC for many years now. What did it say about my priorities? Who was I going to have to apologize to? And of course there were a host of other issues concerning the fact that I had promised people a place to stay in Detroit and also had my workshop proposal accepted and now needed to find a replacement for myself. In one way, all of the chaos involved in rearranging did, in fact take up a great deal of time that could have been spent writing. The broader reality is that depression seized me.